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I went to work with a nasty migraine today – because, let’s face it, most days you just don’t have a choice – for a big project meeting and to meet a tight deadline on another project. Yup, it was a putting the FU in fun kind of a day.

But I came home to Legos and cookies so, really, it wasn’t all bad. Not at all, at all actually.

My grinning husband greeted me at the door with gentle hugs and a ‘how are you feeling?’ and then he said, ‘for you, one rogue’ and handed me a Lego microfighters Millennium Falcon. Um, wow! I do like flowers, but they’re so ephemeral that buying them always seems wasteful somehow. But spontaneous Lego purchases are forever…or something like that.

*gentle, non-head shaking, happy dance*

See, I have a massive thing for well written rouge characters – a proclivity of which my husband is well aware, he being my forever rogue and all – and I often say that my first rogues were Han Solo and Alan Breck. So a Lego Han Solo is just so many of favorite things all in one place. And after I passed out for two hours with my meds and a heating pad on my head, we built Lego fighters and he baked cookies. Yes cookies!

I could have seriously done without the pain, but the evening turned out to be a really nice one – a really nice one, actually. And, as a side benefit, I now know that Legos work great for me post-migraine. Once the pain is gone, I get the shaky hands, really uncoordinated, fuzzy brained thing for up to a day after and this seemed to help...sufficiently so that I have written something more or less coherent here at any rate, though my typing is highly suspect. Cool beans.

Now if only the personal writing were going so well. I’m having a lot of fun with it, but definitely in between bouts of ‘I am a complete and utter hack and I hate every word I write.’

I started out writing one TGS fic that I figured would be a good, short-ish, getting my feet wet sort of fic back in October. Somehow, my short-ish idea has become 56k words and counting – 32.5k of it is even consecutive at the moment, the rest is very Lot 666 as we say in my house (a chandelier novella in pieces). And, yikes! I love it. I hate it. I’m kind of stupidly proud that I’ve at least gotten this far. I’m smitten with some of my own ideas. But I also worry that, in the end, I’m going to turn around and find that I have written some 75k words of absolute crap.

In the middle of writing the big, crazy thing (which does actually have a real name now, so I suppose that means I’m keeping it) my plot bunnies had plot bunnies – because, well, bunnies – and I started writing two shorter TGS things, shorter meaning probably 8 to 10K words. This is good because a) maybe I can finish something soon-ish and b) the big, crazy thing is angsty, so it’s nice that one of my shorter things is just post race happy sexings. In fact, the post race happy thing (which has a real name now too, just this week actually) is almost done…should be almost done…but I’m frankly terrified of the ‘after I finish it’ part. I think this is why I’m dragging my feet so much finishing it – once it’s finished I should probably post it and that’s just plain scary. That and I’m definitely in a hack-feeling phase this week.

Aaaaaand another self-imposed deadline whooshes by and I don’t post anything in March either. Love that sound…grumble, grumble. But I guess what I really should be taking from this is that I’m writing and I care enough about what I’m writing to be thoroughly annoyed by it…oh, and I have Legos. *nods*

Date: 2014-03-28 08:31 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile]
::hugs:: I hate migraines. I seem to get only silent ones at the moment which is fab because I quite enjoy the pretty light show.

Your writing issues sound almost identical to mine except with Musketeers rather than TGS. I paddled for a bit thinking, 'This is great. Just a nice little hobby.'Now I've begun an AU post apoc novel which is eating my brain.

Life is funny.


Date: 2014-03-29 02:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you for the hugs. The silent ones can be just as annoying in their own little psychedelic way though.

While I'm definitely not glad to hear you're having writing issues of your own, it is a little comforting to know that someone with so much more experience with this particular hobby still runs into the some of the same difficulties. Hopefully your AU finishes its brain snack soon and lets you just write it. I am really intrigued by the idea of AU post apoc Musketeers.

Date: 2014-03-28 01:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Ooohh....I can't wait to see whichever you do decide to post...I'm definitely in the mood for a long delicious TG fic! Or shortish would be fine, too.

Date: 2014-03-29 01:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you for the vote of confidence. :)

I don't know if either will be delicious, but that is certainly the goal. Hopefully I'll get something up in April in and around the challenge.

Date: 2014-03-28 11:57 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] marginaliana
I'm really excited for your long TG fics!

Also - yay legos! Sounds like your husband really knows you, which is so lovely.

Date: 2014-03-29 02:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you!! It sounds silly, and I wasn't intending to fish for it with my post, but having a couple of people say they're excited to read things once I've finished them actually helped.


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